In life, I think, we should go all in. In everything we do. Love without holding back. Want something really bad. Work hard for it. Cry if you get it, cry if you don’t. Smother your kid with kisses until he runs at your sight. Hug your partner every time you see them. Crush on someone obsessively. Let it consume you. Allow yourself to think of nothing else. Do away with the what-ifs. Give in. Go all in. And when you are spent, get out. I have always wildly swung between carefully managing my image with every word I utter, to doing completely absurd and impulsive things. There are of course merits to both. Life curation helps you feel secure and make sense of your minuscule existence in the life of this vast vast universe. Let me paint a picture. Imagine yourself in one of the stone age millennia, safe inside your private cave, covering yourself with your DIY sheepskin blanket, preparing for the cold night ahead. Zoom out your lens to get an angle of the full cave, then of the forest, then of the country lands, then of the surrounding blue waters, of the blue green planet, of the solar system, then of the milky way, and all of the extending spaces of the universe. Now zoom back in to the tiny speck that is you, under the blanket. Right. Imagine the innumerable number of revolving objects that only need to change course just a wee bit to challenge the existence of the sheep skin, of the cave, of you. The balanced life you are trying to create is the sheepskin. Giving in helps you come to terms with your insignificant existence, and for that very reason, pushes you to make the most of your time here. Going all in lets you explore your instincts in an unbridled, unchecked way. Think about this - you have been given a chance to roam free on the lands of this glorious globe for a teensy tiny bit of time, to share it with the delightful life around you. And you are working day and night to ensure your teak wood floors are polished and buffed to keep you from sliding too far away from your cave. To quote one of my most favourite human beings - "To live is the rarest thing in the world, most people just exist." And the only way to live, is to experience everything in full. You owe it to your heart to let it feel things with the intensity they deserve. You owe it to your mind to let it dig deep until its curiosity is satisfied. Only when you do that, will you enjoy the journey more than the destination. And such. Disclaimer cum Introspection: All thoughts and ramblings poured into this piece of writing have no relation to the fact that my son has gone all in, into the world of Age of Empires. He keeps at it all day long, researching archaic civilizations and dreaming about halberdiers, elephants, archers, and halberdiers killing elephants killing archers killing halberdiers. Is this whole narrative just an elaborate way of denying this parenting fail? Most definitely not.
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Anoop Garg
27/8/2020 07:15:11 am
Its a beautiful perspective of life; to change course and push limits.
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hayko
27/8/2020 03:01:33 pm
true that! nice to read, icy!
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Aishwarya KalakataThe loss of and search for individualism has never been felt more acutely. Everything changed after I had a kid. But this blog is not about me being a mom. It’s about the things I do when I want to stop being a mom. It’s about telling myself that it is possible and that it is ok. It’s about my little escapades. Mostly travel - sometimes physical, sometimes mental. A desperate bid to stop my identity from being rolled into a single word. CategoriesArchives
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